{"id":1441,"date":"2022-04-13T07:45:00","date_gmt":"2022-04-13T07:45:00","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/urbanvolcano.net\/en\/?p=1441"},"modified":"2025-03-21T18:08:37","modified_gmt":"2025-03-21T18:08:37","slug":"what-we-want-to-want","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/urbanvolcano.net\/en\/what-we-want-to-want\/","title":{"rendered":"What We Want to Want"},"content":{"rendered":"\n<aside class=\"other-formats\">Other formats: <a title=\"What We Want to Want (PDF)\" href=\"https:\/\/urbanvolcano.net\/ebooks\/en\/pdf\/what-we-want-to-want.pdf\">PDF<\/a> | <a title=\"\u00dea\u00f0 sem vi\u00f0 \u00fer\u00e1um a\u00f0 \u00fer\u00e1 (\u00edslenska)\" href=\"https:\/\/urbanvolcano.net\/is\/thad-sem-vid-thraum-ad-thra\/\">\u00edslenska<\/a><\/aside>\n\n\n<div class=\"wp-block-image is-resized\">\n<figure class=\"alignright size-medium\"><a href=\"https:\/\/i0.wp.com\/urbanvolcano.net\/en\/wp-content\/uploads\/2022\/04\/what-we-want-to-want.png?ssl=1\"><img data-recalc-dims=\"1\" loading=\"lazy\" decoding=\"async\" width=\"300\" height=\"300\" src=\"https:\/\/i0.wp.com\/urbanvolcano.net\/en\/wp-content\/uploads\/2022\/04\/what-we-want-to-want.png?resize=300%2C300&#038;ssl=1\" alt=\"What We Want to Want \u2014 Illustration B\u00f6rkur Sigurbj\u00f6rnsson\" class=\"wp-image-1442\" srcset=\"https:\/\/i0.wp.com\/urbanvolcano.net\/en\/wp-content\/uploads\/2022\/04\/what-we-want-to-want.png?resize=300%2C300&amp;ssl=1 300w, https:\/\/i0.wp.com\/urbanvolcano.net\/en\/wp-content\/uploads\/2022\/04\/what-we-want-to-want.png?resize=150%2C150&amp;ssl=1 150w, https:\/\/i0.wp.com\/urbanvolcano.net\/en\/wp-content\/uploads\/2022\/04\/what-we-want-to-want.png?resize=768%2C768&amp;ssl=1 768w, https:\/\/i0.wp.com\/urbanvolcano.net\/en\/wp-content\/uploads\/2022\/04\/what-we-want-to-want.png?resize=900%2C900&amp;ssl=1 900w, https:\/\/i0.wp.com\/urbanvolcano.net\/en\/wp-content\/uploads\/2022\/04\/what-we-want-to-want.png?resize=500%2C500&amp;ssl=1 500w, https:\/\/i0.wp.com\/urbanvolcano.net\/en\/wp-content\/uploads\/2022\/04\/what-we-want-to-want.png?w=1025&amp;ssl=1 1025w\" sizes=\"auto, (max-width: 300px) 100vw, 300px\" \/><\/a><figcaption class=\"wp-element-caption\">Illustration B\u00f6rkur Sigurbj\u00f6rnsson<\/figcaption><\/figure><\/div>\n\n\n<p>Valur closed the front door of the apartment building behind him and shrugged when confronted with the fresh Icelandic summer breeze. Having lived abroad for a decade and a half, he was struggling to get used to the fact that the ideal dress for summer days was not simply a T-shirt\u2014even at midsummer. Valur looked up between the midrise residential towers where he was staying this week. The sky was gray. Although it was not what he was used to these days, the weather could hardly be more typical for this part of the world at this time of the year. It was one of those days where it was uncertain if it would rain or not, but one thing was sure, it was going to be cloudy.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>The weather was one of the parameters Valur had to keep in mind if he was to move back to Reykjav\u00edk. He had to make sure he would be able to accept it. There would not be as many sunny days in Reykjav\u00edk as he was used to enjoying either in Amsterdam or Barcelona. There would definitely be more cloudy days. More rain. More snow. More slush. Then there would be that indecisive constant drizzle that could go on for days without making up its mind if it was going to fall as proper rain or not. He should embrace the fact that there would be weeks where he would hardly see the sun. It was true that he sometimes complained about the suffocating summer heat by the Mediterranean, but he had to keep in mind that all in all Barcelona had a better climate than either Amsterdam or Reykjav\u00edk. It was also one of the few positive aspects of his frequent journeys between Barcelona and Amsterdam that he could choose to spend an extra couple of days in Holland if Catalonia was too warm.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Valur walked across the parking lot between the apartment buildings and made his way toward Borgart\u00fan. It was arguably among the denser parts of Reykjav\u00edk, and by urban theories it should be accompanied by an active street life. However, there were few people out and about on this Tuesday morning. The only sign of life was a constant stream of cars moving up and down the street. Come to think of it, this was typical of Reykjav\u00edk street life. The few people who ventured outside stayed inside their automobiles. What was it about his fellow countryfolk and cars? Did they really like them so much or were they merely caught in a situation where the urban design with low density and mighty suburbs made it too difficult to break out of those motorized steel cages? Maybe it was a chicken and egg problem where few people used sustainable transport because the infrastructure was lacking and no politician dared invest in infrastructure for sustainable transport since there were so few users\u2014so few voters, so few votes. In any case, cars were not Valur&#8217;s cup of tea and he wondered how much he would miss the street life of the two cities he was contemplating leaving behind. He would miss the bustling squares of Barcelona, the busy pavements, the small shops that he could reach on foot, the greengrocer, the butcher, the wineshop. He would miss the cycling in Amsterdam, the canal walks past ever-changing gables, and, last but not least, the Vondelpark picnics. He would miss the cities where life took place in public spaces\u2014not only indoors, be it doors to houses or doors to cars. He imagined how different it would be if he were wandering about Barcelona today. He would sit down for a coffee in a caf\u00e9 on a busy square, enjoying watching people as they went about their business in the midmorning sun. If he wasn\u2019t in a Tuesday morning meeting, that is.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>As Valur reached the open area around H\u00f6f\u00f0i he stopped for a moment to look over to the mountains across the <em>blue straits<\/em>. The scene that had inspired so many poets\u2014one describing the mountain ranges as purple dreams on a spring night. The mountain view, the straits, the islands\u2014one could hardly imagine a better frame for a city. Reykjav\u00edk was an urban area in close proximity to nature, and the wilderness was no doubt one of the main attractions of Iceland, not only for tourists but also for himself. He loved the endless views of emptiness. The quiet nature. For sure it was easy to get to the mountains from Barcelona. The Pyrenees were only a couple hours away by train. However, even if both Reykjav\u00edk and Barcelona had an easy route to mountains, it was not the same. There was not the same sense of isolation on the Iberian Peninsula as in the Icelandic highlands. As much as Valur didn&#8217;t like the lack of people on the streets of Reykjav\u00edk, he did not like the abundance of people in the Pyrenees. He realized he was an extremist in that sense. For him there were only two possible states of being. The big city with its crowds and dense street life on one hand and untouched nature on the other, where he could be alone or with a small group of close friends, with a low probability of running into other people.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Valur was really looking forward to the trip he had coming up the following week. He was traveling with the usual group of friends to the remote northwestern part of Iceland where they were going to spend eight days walking in the wilds without ever seeing a town, without ever coming across a human-inhabited place. It was going to be a week on the border between civilization and the uninhabited ice sheet of the North Pole. Valur missed these outings. The group did at least two weeklong trips every year and then there were the more frequent, but shorter, weekend excursions. Valur tried to catch at least one of the longer trips every year, but he could not make it for the weekend escapes. It would be so much easier if he lived in Reykjav\u00edk.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>When Valur reached Laugavegur, the street got livelier and there were more people around. They were mostly tourists, though, and he wondered if he himself felt more like a local or a tourist. The scene was in some ways familiar, but at the same time quite novel. He struggled to identify with the place. So much had changed in the past fifteen years. Icelandic society had evolved, and he had matured too. There was something about the way of life in Iceland that he could not relate to. He liked living a modest lifestyle in a small flat, without the luxuries of a microwave, television, dishwasher, or dryer. He didn&#8217;t own a car or have a mortgage. Things in Iceland were different. Here he felt that everyone was expected to have the same lifestyle, with their house and garden, children and cars, dishwashers and dogs. Valur wanted to be agile\u2014free to move around\u2014free to live in the present without having to think about the future. He was afraid that if he moved to Reykjav\u00edk he would plant his feet too rigidly into the infertile Icelandic soil.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>At the bottom of Bankastr\u00e6ti Valur headed toward the harbor where Harpa, the relatively new concert hall, stood. He paused on the hill in front of the hall and admired the fancy construction. The building itself was an impressive glass structure influenced by the hexagonal rocks found in abundance in Icelandic nature, but the surrounding was not as stunning\u2014a mix of vacant lots and vast empty holes waiting to be filled with the foundations of new buildings. It was now four years since the 2008 economic crisis had put construction on hold, and there were not many signs of the pace picking up anytime soon. The square in front of the concert hall was as depressing as the building was stunning. Most of it was covered with black asphalt, not so different from an empty parking lot. In order to prevent drivers from mistaking it for parking, a number of concrete blocks had been scattered over the surface. Valur did like the iconic Icelandic landscape of black sand as far as the eye could reach. However, this was not the venue for the desert. Just as the black sands was uninviting to human populations, this ocean of asphalt was equally harsh. This was the city. This should be a welcoming place for people. There were admittedly a few benches scattered across the square but nothing to attract interesting city life. No vegetation. No street caf\u00e9s. Nothing. Valur felt sad. He really wanted to be in love with Reykjav\u00edk. He longed to be excited. It would make his decision to relocate to the city so much easier.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Valur walked across L\u00e6kjartorg, down Hafnarstr\u00e6ti, heading for the Reykjav\u00edk Art Museum. He needed to clear his mind. He needed a mental diversion. He had to stop thinking about the relocation for a while, and a museum was an ideal distraction.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"has-text-align-center\">* * *<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Although it was a cloudy summer morning with tourist season in full swing, he was alone in the big hall. There was a complete silence apart from the squeaking from under the rubber soles of his shoes as he walked across the glossed concrete floor. Valur felt a relaxing sensation go through his body and ease the tension that had been building up for the past few days. Visiting the museum had been a good idea. The theme of the current exhibition was art from everyday life. The advertised goal was to find the border between things we consider artwork and things we use as part of our daily routine.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>At the center of the hall, Valur stopped by quite an ordinary armchair, placed next to a big sign asking guests not to sit on the artwork. He stared at the armchair. Was this art or was this just an item from everyday life? That was an intriguing question. What was art, anyway? Can an ordinary armchair in the middle of a room be art? For sure there was design in the chair. But art? Where did the line lie between art and design? Between design and manufacturing? Was the design present in every produced iteration, or just in the original prototype? Plato would surely have had an answer for that.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>\u201cIs this art?\u201d<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Valur jumped. He had not heard anyone enter the hall, and the voice seemed to originate from right behind his back. He turned around and faced a woman standing a few feet away. She was below average height and slim. Her chestnut hair was cut short, at chin height, and her bright gray-blue eyes pulled at his attention like magnets. Her skin was pale and smooth. She was smiling. On one hand she had a childish look to her but something in her aspect made Valur guess she was about his age\u2014recently past her midthirties.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>\u201cQuite frankly, I have no clue,\u201d Valur replied after he had recovered from the startle. \u201cI was actually pondering that exact question. I find it hard to see a chair in the middle of a room as an object of art. If this chair is called art, then anything can be labeled as art. Can&#8217;t it?\u201d<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>\u201cI&#8217;m not sure if it&#8217;s that simple,\u201d the woman said as she moved closer and walked around the chair to view it better. \u201cMaybe the art is not so much in the chair itself. The artist could be challenging us to look beyond the chair and ask ourselves a different set of questions. Isn&#8217;t it too narrow to focus solely on the chair as an object of art? Could it be that the art lies in the combination of the chair and the sign? In the contrast put forward by not allowing people to use the chair for the purpose it was made? Maybe the purpose of the artist is to make us choose between two incompatible choices. Maybe the artist really wants us to sit down, even if we are told not to do so.\u201d<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>She finished her walk around the chair and sat down. Valur could feel the hair on his arms rise and a nervous tension spread through his body. \u201cYou can&#8217;t do that,\u201d he whispered, looking about the room to see if there were any guards. \u201cSomeone might see you!\u201d<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>\u201cI doubt that,\u201d she said grinning. \u201cI think the artist wants you to think about the contrast between the things you should do and the things you want to do. The contrast between the things you think you should do and the things you really want to do. The contrast between what you want to want and what you really want. People are asking themselves the wrong questions all the time. They are obsessed with asking the questions that lead them to the conclusions they want to reach.\u201d<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>\u201cAre you the artist?\u201d Valur asked, calming down a little, suspecting this scene was all a part of the show.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>\u201cYou don&#8217;t remember me, do you?\u201d the woman asked, staring at him with those hypnotizing gray-blue eyes.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>\u201cNo, should I?\u201d Valur answered, wondering if she was an old classmate from high school or even elementary school. No, he could not locate her in his memory.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>\u201cIt&#8217;s me, Ugla,\u201d she said. \u201cDon&#8217;t you remember? Your old friend.\u201d<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>\u201cUgla?\u201d Valur was taken aback. The scene had been confusing before but was now turning into something too surrealistic to believe. \u201dUgla? My invisible friend from childhood?\u201d<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>\u201cDo I look invisible to you?\u201d<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>\u201cNo,\u201d Valur admitted, though unconvinced.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>\u201cThen I&#8217;d prefer if you referred to me\u2014\u201d she said, pausing for a moment\u2014\u201csimply as your friend.\u201d<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Valur was silent, his eyes fixed on the woman sitting in the armchair in front of him. She stared back, grinning. Valur closed his eyes and took a deep breath. Ugla, his imaginary friend from childhood. He smiled. He had not thought of her in a long time. In fact, he had no personal recollections of her. He remembered her only through the stories his parents repeated so often. According to them, he and Ugla frequently played together. He had his parents put a plate for her at the dining table, as she joined them for dinner from time to time. She even traveled with the family. Until one summer when they were on holiday in Ireland, she disappeared. He stopped mentioning her. He stopped playing with her. It appeared as if she had disappeared entirely from his mind\u2014ceased to be a figment of his imagination. No one knew what had terminated their friendship.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Valur opened his eyes again. Ugla was still there. Sitting in the armchair, laid back and relaxed, staring at him.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>\u201cWhy don&#8217;t we go somewhere nice and have a drink,\u201d she said, standing up from the chair. \u201cWe have plenty of catching up to do.\u201d<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"has-text-align-center\">* * *<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Valur and Ugla left the museum and walked back into the chilly Icelandic summer morning. Noon was still over an hour away and there would be no problem finding a quiet space to catch up. Valur suggested they go to the restaurant in the Falcon House as it was reasonably close by and, quite frankly, one of the few places he actually knew in town. He visited too infrequently to keep up with the fast turnover in the gastronomic scene.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>\u201cI&#8217;ll go to the restroom,\u201d Ugla said as they had found themselves a nice table by a window, overlooking Ing\u00f3lfstorg Square.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Valur sat down and studied the wine list. He was no expert but managed to recognize two reds on offer, a Spanish Crianza from Rioja and an Argentine Malbec from Mendoza.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>\u201cWe&#8217;ll have a bottle of the Malbec,\u201d Valur said to the waiter as he came over to the table. \u201cAnd two glasses.\u201d<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Valur could not help grinning. It was just as in his parents&#8217; stories where he felt he had to ask to have the table set for Ugla.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>\u201cShould I bring the wine now, or wait until your party arrives?\u201d the waiter asked.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>\u201cBring it now,\u201d Valur replied. \u201cWe arrived together. She just went to the bathroom and will be right back.\u201d<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>\u201cSure, of course,\u201d the waiter said, lifting his eyebrows. \u201cAs you wish.\u201d<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>The waiter returned with the bottle of wine and two glasses. He poured Valur a small glass for tasting. Valur let the wine roll around on his tongue for a while before accepting it. The waiter filled his glass and went about his business. Valur reached for the bottle and poured a half-full glass for Ugla.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>\u201cSo, what brings you to Iceland?\u201d Ugla asked as she returned from the bathroom. \u201cI thought you were living in Barcelona, or was it Amsterdam?\u201d<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>\u201cYes, I mostly live in Barcelona, but I also spend a lot of time in Amsterdam, for work. I&#8217;m just visiting.\u201d<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>\u201cTo Amsterdam and Barcelona,\u201d Ugla said, raising her glass for a toast. \u201cSounds like a nice combination.\u201d<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>\u201cCheers!\u201d said Valur, lifting his glass. \u201cIt is. But what about you? Weren&#8217;t we in Ireland last time we saw each other?\u201d<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>\u201cYes we were, but I have no fixed place of residence. I wander around. Go where I&#8217;m needed. I usually do short stints in each place. Now I&#8217;m on a project in Reykjav\u00edk. I guess it will be a short stay, though. And you?\u201d<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>\u201cI&#8217;ll be staying a couple of weeks.\u201d<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>\u201cBusiness or pleasure?\u201d<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>\u201cBoth. I&#8217;m going on a hiking trip with my friends next week, but I&#8217;m also here for a job. Yesterday I had an interview with a local company.\u201d<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Thinking about the job interview, Valur felt butterflies in his stomach. Was he really this nervous about getting the job? Or was it the effect of drinking wine before lunch? In reality, he had no reason to be nervous. He had had much tougher interviews in the past. This one had been pretty easy in comparison. It was as if the job description had been written to perfectly match his education and work experience. The interview had gone really well and he felt a good vibe among the people. The chemistry had been right on so many levels. If anything, it had been too good to be true. It was a brand-new chemical engineering startup where he would be able to focus his energy exclusively on experimenting with natural chemicals under inspiration from Icelandic geothermal areas. The product was based on a concept he had been thinking about for a while. It would be a great contrast to the large multinational chemical giant where he currently spent more time in boring meetings and dealing with company politics than actually doing chemistry.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>\u201cHopeful?\u201d Ugla asked, interrupting his thoughts.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>\u201cAbout what?\u201d Valur had forgotten she was there and what they had been talking about.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>\u201cThe job, of course.\u201d<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>\u201cOh, yes. No. I mean yes. Both. Yes and no. I&#8217;m torn. On one side I&#8217;m hopeful that I&#8217;ll get it. On the other&#8230; I don&#8217;t know&#8230; I hope that I won&#8217;t. It&#8217;s complicated.\u201d<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>\u201cIs the job not interesting enough?\u201d<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>\u201cNo, it&#8217;s not that. I mean yes, it&#8217;s interesting. If anything, it&#8217;s kind of a dream job for me.\u201d<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>\u201cSo, it&#8217;s almost certain you&#8217;ll get it?\u201d<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>\u201cYes, I think so.\u201d<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>\u201cThat&#8217;s great then!\u201d<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>\u201cI don&#8217;t know.\u201d<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>\u201cWhy not?\u201d<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>\u201cI&#8217;d have to move to Reykjav\u00edk.\u201d<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>\u201cWhat&#8217;s wrong with Reykjav\u00edk?\u201d<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>\u201cI&#8217;m not sure. I&#8217;m not sure I like the city. I&#8217;m not sure I fit into the Icelandic mentality anymore.\u201d<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>\u201cWhy not?\u201d<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>\u201cI enjoy the modest urban lifestyle I maintain in Barcelona. I like to be able to have breakfast outside on a terrace all year round.\u201d<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>\u201cHow often do you have breakfast on a terrace in Barcelona?\u201d<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>\u201cHardly ever, really.\u201d<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>\u201cSo?\u201d<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>\u201cThat&#8217;s not the issue. It&#8217;s more about the concept. I would like to have the option. I just don&#8217;t visualize myself in Reykjav\u00edk.\u201d<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>\u201cWhy not?\u201d<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>\u201cMany things. For one thing, I like a car-free lifestyle. My parents&#8217; town is an hour&#8217;s drive from Reykjav\u00edk. My friends live all over the capital area, split between be city center, the suburbs, and the satellites. It would be madness getting around.\u201d<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>\u201cThen why move?\u201d<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>\u201cFor two years I&#8217;ve been casually thinking about returning to Iceland. I want to spend more time with my parents. I have a very close group of friends here. I miss them. I miss spending time with them, hiking, enjoying nature.\u201d<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>\u201cI see,\u201d Ugla said, putting up a soothing smile that made Valur relax.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>\u201cI don&#8217;t like the choice. For two years I&#8217;ve avoided addressing the question of whether I really want to live in Iceland, brushing it away by quite rightfully claiming that there were no jobs for me here. No jobs that fit my expertise, that is. I convinced myself that I had specialized myself away from the Icelandic job market. Therefore, I did not have to choose between the big city and my hometown. There wasn&#8217;t a choice to make. Then, a few weeks ago, this company approached me and invited me for an interview.\u201d<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>\u201cAnd since the interview went well, you can no longer hide,\u201d Ugla concluded, looking Valur in the eyes and reading his thoughts. \u201cYou cannot hide behind the excuse that there are no jobs for you in Iceland. You have to make up your mind. You have to make a decision.\u201d<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>\u201cExactly!\u201d Deep inside Valur hoped the answer from the job interview would be negative. He hoped he wasn&#8217;t the right person for the job and he wouldn&#8217;t get it. Then he wouldn&#8217;t have to answer any of those difficult questions. He could hit the snooze button once again. He could postpone the decision of whether to move back to Iceland or stay in Barcelona. He found the choice hard. Both options had their pluses and minuses. Neither option was clearly better than the other. \u201cI want to spend more time with my friends and family, but I also want to live in a real city.\u201d<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>\u201cWhat&#8217;s real?\u201d Ugla asked.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>\u201cIsn&#8217;t it a bit ironic that you of all people would cast a doubt upon my notion of reality?\u201d<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>\u201cYou&#8217;re saying I&#8217;m not real?\u201d<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>\u201cI don&#8217;t know,\u201d Valur sighed.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>\u201cWhat I&#8217;m saying is that sometimes it&#8217;s not easy to distinguish between what&#8217;s real and what&#8217;s not. We find it hard to make a distinction between what we want to want and what we really want.\u201d<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>\u201cI&#8217;m not sure it&#8217;s that deep or philosophical,\u201d Valur said. \u201cI think it&#8217;s a quite straightforward conflict of constraints. In any case, I was trying not to think about it for a while. Can we change the subject?\u201d<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>\u201cSure,\u201d Ugla said. \u201cHow&#8217;s your brother?\u201d<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>\u201cMy brother?\u201d Valur felt his body tense, the blood rush to his face, and his voice get louder. \u201cWhat has he got&#8230; got to do with anything?\u201d<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>\u201cTake it easy. I was just asking,\u201d Ugla said, shrugging. \u201cI was just curious since I remembered you having an older brother. A year your senior, no?\u201d<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>\u201cYes, I did have an older brother,\u201d Valur replied. \u201cI do have an older brother. I guess he&#8217;s fine.\u201d<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>\u201cSo you haven&#8217;t been in touch with him since you arrived?\u201d<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>\u201cNo,\u201d Valur replied, looking away and over the square. \u201cI&#8217;ve been busy.\u201d<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>\u201cAnd the fact that your brother married your childhood crush\u2014the love of your life\u2014has nothing to do with your doubt about relocating to Iceland?\u201d<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Valur closed his eyes and felt as if the world was spinning around in his head. This was not happening. He was not being lectured by an entity that didn&#8217;t even exist\u2014from some imaginary creature that seemed able to enter and exit his life at its own will every few decades. What did she know about what he thought or did not think? What he wanted to want or what he really wanted<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"has-text-align-center\">* * *<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>When Valur opened his eyes again and looked across the table, Ugla was gone. All he sat across was a half-full glass of red wine. His own glass was empty. He poured the last drops of wine into his glass and leaned back in the chair. He was tipsy, but his head was clearer than before. He had made a decision. She had been right, after all. He did not have to wait for any more answers. He was not going to take the job if they offered it to him. He was not ready to move back to Reykjav\u00edk. He was not ready to face reality.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<aside class=\"wp-block-group book-ad has-text-color has-background\" style=\"color:#000000;background-color:#65aab1\"><div class=\"wp-block-group__inner-container is-layout-flow wp-block-group-is-layout-flow\">\n<div class=\"wp-block-media-text is-stacked-on-mobile\" style=\"grid-template-columns:33% auto\"><figure class=\"wp-block-media-text__media\"><img data-recalc-dims=\"1\" loading=\"lazy\" decoding=\"async\" width=\"600\" height=\"790\" src=\"https:\/\/i0.wp.com\/urbanvolcano.net\/en\/wp-content\/uploads\/2022\/02\/Talk_to_Strangers.png?resize=600%2C790&#038;ssl=1\" alt=\"Talk to Strangers \u2014 Cover by Ana Pi\u00f1eyro\" class=\"wp-image-1281 size-full\" srcset=\"https:\/\/i0.wp.com\/urbanvolcano.net\/en\/wp-content\/uploads\/2022\/02\/Talk_to_Strangers.png?w=600&amp;ssl=1 600w, https:\/\/i0.wp.com\/urbanvolcano.net\/en\/wp-content\/uploads\/2022\/02\/Talk_to_Strangers.png?resize=228%2C300&amp;ssl=1 228w, https:\/\/i0.wp.com\/urbanvolcano.net\/en\/wp-content\/uploads\/2022\/02\/Talk_to_Strangers.png?resize=500%2C658&amp;ssl=1 500w\" sizes=\"auto, (max-width: 600px) 100vw, 600px\" \/><\/figure><div class=\"wp-block-media-text__content\">\n<h4 class=\"wp-block-heading\">Talk to Strangers<\/h4>\n\n\n\n<p>This short story appeared in the short story collection Talk to Strangers.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>If you enjoyed the story, we encourage you to support the publication by buying a copy of the book. <\/p>\n\n\n\n<p><em>Talk to Strangers<\/em> is available as paperbacks from <a href=\"https:\/\/www.amazon.com\/Talk-Strangers-B\u00f6rkur-Sigurbj\u00f6rnsson\/dp\/9935946630\/\">Amazon<\/a> and <a href=\"https:\/\/www.barnesandnoble.com\/w\/talk-to-strangers-b-rkur-sigurbj-rnsson\/1133872149\">Barnes and Noble<\/a> and e-books from <a href=\"https:\/\/www.amazon.com\/Talk-Strangers-B\u00f6rkur-Sigurbj\u00f6rnsson-ebook\/dp\/B07YLMPF2Y\/\">Kindle Store<\/a>, <a href=\"https:\/\/books.apple.com\/us\/book\/talk-to-strangers\/id1482435430\">Apple Books<\/a>, <a href=\"https:\/\/www.kobo.com\/gb\/en\/ebook\/talk-to-strangers-2\">Kobo<\/a>, and <a href=\"https:\/\/www.storytel.com\/in\/books\/talk-to-strangers-2028507\">Storytel<\/a>.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>You can also support the author through <a href=\"https:\/\/patreon.com\/UrbanVolcano\">Patreon<\/a> and <a href=\"https:\/\/buymeacoffee.com\/borkur\">Buy Me a Coffee<\/a> or by rating the book on<a href=\"https:\/\/www.goodreads.com\/book\/show\/48424143-talk-to-strangers\"> Goodreads<\/a>.<\/p>\n<\/div><\/div>\n\n\n\n<div class=\"wp-block-buttons is-horizontal is-content-justification-center is-layout-flex wp-container-core-buttons-is-layout-499968f5 wp-block-buttons-is-layout-flex\">\n<div class=\"wp-block-button has-custom-width wp-block-button__width-50\"><a class=\"wp-block-button__link has-text-color has-background wp-element-button\" href=\"https:\/\/urbanvolcano.net\/en\/talk-to-strangers\/\" style=\"border-radius:50px;color:#ffffff;background-color:#000000\">book details<\/a><\/div>\n<\/div>\n<\/div><\/aside>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>A short story by B\u00f6rkur Sigurbj\u00f6rnsson. 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