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A\u00f0rar \u00fatg\u00e1fur: PDF<\/a> | english<\/a><\/p>\n\n\n

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\"Til<\/a>
Myndskreyting B\u00f6rkur Sigurbj\u00f6rnsson<\/figcaption><\/figure>\n<\/div>\n\n\n

K\u00e6ra dagb\u00f3k!<\/p>\n\n\n\n

K\u00e6ri \u00e9g!<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Til \u00feeirra sem m\u00e1li\u00f0 var\u00f0ar e\u00f0a var\u00f0ar alls ekki.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Var\u00f0 hugsa\u00f0 til Jo \u00ed morgun. F\u00e9sb\u00f3kin sag\u00f0i a\u00f0 hann \u00e6tti afm\u00e6li. Fannst \u00fev\u00ed tilvali\u00f0 a\u00f0 senda honum l\u00ednu. Vi\u00f0 h\u00f6fum alveg misst ni\u00f0ur sambandi\u00f0 eftir a\u00f0 vi\u00f0 h\u00e9ldum hvor \u00ed s\u00edna \u00e1ttina eftir n\u00e1ms\u00e1rin \u00ed Berl\u00edn. Vi\u00f0 sem n\u00e1\u00f0um svo vel saman \u00e1 \u00feeim t\u00edma. Sambandi\u00f0 var eitthva\u00f0 svo \u00e1reynslulaust. \u00dea\u00f0 var eins og \u00fea\u00f0 v\u00e6ri meitla\u00f0 \u00ed stein af einhvers konar alm\u00e6tti og vi\u00f0 \u00feurftum bara a\u00f0 slaka \u00e1 og fylgjast me\u00f0 \u00fev\u00ed \u00fer\u00f3ast og dafna.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Jo sendir m\u00e9r afm\u00e6lis\u00f3skir \u00e1 hverju \u00e1ri. \u00c9g sendi honum aldrei hamingju\u00f3skir \u00e1 hans afm\u00e6li. Ekki frekar en \u00f6\u00f0ru f\u00f3lki sem \u00e9g hef kynnst \u00ed gegnum t\u00ed\u00f0ina. Hva\u00f0 veldur?<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Stundum langar mig a\u00f0 heyra fr\u00e1 f\u00f3lki en f\u00e6 mig samt aldrei til a\u00f0 skrifa \u00feeim a\u00f0 fyrra brag\u00f0i. Hva\u00f0 myndi f\u00f3lk hugsa ef \u00fea\u00f0 fengi allt \u00ed einu skilabo\u00f0 fr\u00e1 m\u00e9r? Hvers vegna er \u00feessi gaur a\u00f0 senda m\u00e9r eitthva\u00f0 n\u00fana? Eftir \u00f6ll \u00feessi \u00fe\u00f6glu \u00e1r? Hann sem skrifar annars aldrei. \u00deyrfti \u00e9g ekki a\u00f0 sk\u00fdra \u00fea\u00f0 eitthva\u00f0 af hverju \u00e9g skrifa\u00f0i n\u00fana en ekki \u00e1\u00f0ur? Myndu skrifin svo ekki setja einhvers konar m\u00f3ralska pressu \u00e1 mig til a\u00f0 halda uppi reglulegum skrifum? Pressu sem \u00e9g efa\u00f0ist st\u00f3rlega um a\u00f0 \u00e9g g\u00e6ti sta\u00f0i\u00f0 undir til lengri t\u00edma liti\u00f0.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u00c1kva\u00f0 a\u00f0 senda Jo hamingju\u00f3skir \u00feetta \u00e1ri\u00f0. Mig langa\u00f0i virkilega a\u00f0 heyra fr\u00e1 honum. Hvernig sem \u00fea\u00f0 myndi l\u00edta \u00fat. Hva\u00f0 sem hann myndi hugsa.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u00dea\u00f0 var ekki au\u00f0velt. \u00dea\u00f0 er v\u00e6gast sagt \u00f3st\u00f6\u00f0ugt efnahags\u00e1standi\u00f0 \u00ed hans heimshluta \u00feessa dagana. Myndi honum finnast \u00fea\u00f0 \u00f3smekklegt ef \u00e9g minntist eitthva\u00f0 \u00e1 \u00fea\u00f0 \u00ed bland vi\u00f0 hamingju\u00f3skirnar? Myndi honum finnast \u00fea\u00f0 d\u00e6mi um f\u00e1fr\u00e6\u00f0i af minni h\u00e1lfu e\u00f0a skort \u00e1 samkennd ef \u00e9g minntist ekkert \u00e1 \u00e1standi\u00f0?<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Hva\u00f0 me\u00f0 fr\u00e9ttir af m\u00e9r? \u00c6tti \u00e9g a\u00f0 t\u00edna til einhverja mola? Hann hefur n\u00e1nast ekkert heyrt fr\u00e1 m\u00e9r \u00ed hva\u00f0, \u00ferj\u00fa, fj\u00f6gur, fimm \u00e1r. T\u00edminn fl\u00fdgur. \u00cd hva\u00f0 hefur hann fari\u00f0? Hva\u00f0a fr\u00e9ttir \u00e6tti \u00e9g svo sem a\u00f0 segja? \u00de\u00e6r n\u00fdjustu? Merkustu? Er eitthva\u00f0 \u00ed m\u00ednu l\u00edfi sem g\u00e6ti talist \u00ed fr\u00e1s\u00f6gur f\u00e6randi? Hef\u00f0i hann yfir h\u00f6fu\u00f0 einhvern \u00e1huga \u00e1 a\u00f0 vita hva\u00f0 v\u00e6ri af m\u00e9r a\u00f0 fr\u00e9tta? V\u00e6ri \u00e9g ekki bara a\u00f0 ey\u00f0a nokkrum d\u00fdrm\u00e6tum m\u00edn\u00fatum \u00far hans degi\u2014m\u00edn\u00fatum sem hann g\u00e6ti betur nota\u00f0 til \u00feess a\u00f0 halda upp \u00e1 afm\u00e6li\u00f0 sitt?<\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u00c1 endanum skrifa\u00f0i \u00e9g honum bara einfaldar hamingju\u00f3skir. Ekkert meira. Bara til hamingju me\u00f0 daginn. B\u00fai\u00f0.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

N\u00fa er klukkan a\u00f0 n\u00e1lgast mi\u00f0n\u00e6tti. \u00dea\u00f0 eru sj\u00f6 t\u00edmar s\u00ed\u00f0an \u00e9g sendi kve\u00f0juna. Hann er ekki b\u00fainn a\u00f0 svara. Hann er ekki einu sinni b\u00fainn a\u00f0 k\u00edkja \u00e1 skilabo\u00f0in.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Eitthva\u00f0 vir\u00f0ist \u00feetta n\u00fa hafa misfarist hj\u00e1 m\u00e9r. Eins og vanalega.<\/p>\n\n\n\n